I'm torn|| this summer || pictures

I've been longing for the smell of the German woodlands; longing for the home of my birth. I think it's been the smell in the air, the dampness; the way the hills are flooded with green, and the rain that has been pattering on the window. But I can't be sure; maybe I'm just homesick. All I know is that I miss it all so much, and that I am torn between here and there.
 After all; Germany is a part of me. It is grained deep into the history of my heart and my soul. I love it; I love every inch of its beautiful land.    

Germany Trip: 2011

if I remember correctly, in the horizon you could see France.

aren't my parents just the sweetest?

just look at it, just look at it!!

have you ever seen any thing more delightful?

folk dances. they were brilliant.

I can't get over how beautiful this is.

this old town was so beautiful. no, it was stunning.

all the above pictures were taken by various members of my family.

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But then there is my home. currently; the place I live with my wonderful parents and brother. yes, I would definitely call it home but somehow... I'm still, and always will be, a stranger. I will forever be torn between the place I live now and the place I was born. I will always long to be there while I am here and vice versa: I guess it is one of the perks of being dual citizen: I'll be forever torn.

all the below pictures by me.

the chokecherry blossoms are so incredibly fragrant! and I am so blessed that my bedroom window is facing the bush. :)

the front door. Home sweet home.

I heart these flowers.

But this summer... this summer I've decided to stop worrying. To stop stressing out and simply give it to God; to trust that He's in the future.
So my goal this summer is to live. To do more outside and watch the sunsets. To take time to smell the flowers.To enjoy the breeze kissing my face and maybe get a better tan than last year. :) I want to stop stressing about my writing and just sit back and let the words come whenever and whatever. To live for right now but also for the future; my future, and the future of all those who have dedicated themselves to God. To live peacefully, maybe even quietly, and to enjoy every blissful and yes, every painful moment. To capture it all, to remember, to take pictures.

I just want to enjoy living. I want to enjoy living here... and even though my heart is begging to be once again among those forest paths and German graveyards; I want to be content with right now: right here. because after all... I know I love it here; I really do.

enjoy these days, just soak them up and take a deep breath of the flowers.
   xx. Amy Jane