I can say this though: I am learning what it means to brave. My experiences with my friends and some of the more painful episodes of the last couple weeks have made me stronger. I feel it. And it's not like I'm not afraid anymore; because I am. but it's more like I've realized that any pain I might experience is completely worth it. And I rejoice because I found that in my brokenness Jesus came so very near and honestly? I find my heart singing and realize that the pain and heartbreak is gone as I feel His embrace. Truly, He is a refuge and strong tower from the storm and I can't even begin to describe how happy I am.
I was mowing our yard last night (we have a rather large acreage) and as I was carefully trying to avoid the large pieces of wood that the winter winds had thrown unto the ground, I began to notice the soft breeze kissing my face and the gentle caresses of the evening light. And as I turned my gaze to the cloudy heavens, I noticed the streaks of light coming through the clouds... and I think my heart actually did a somersault and melted. It was like God was reaching down from His throne above showing me that He loved me through those rays of light. That He was reminding me that He had heard the cries of my heart and that He was very, very near. It was unlike anything I had ever seen or felt before... my heart was completely taken in and I felt myself fall in love with Him in all His greatness all over again.
Because once again Jesus had showed just how much He loved me. Just how much I meant to Him. and you know what the best part is? He doesn't need me. but He wants me.
There is so much more I would like to say but I'm not even sure I know what it is. I just find that my heart is full to the brim and flooding over, but I really must go as my piano students will be here shortly.
xx. Amy Jane
ahh... i just love you. and your heart. :) this makes me happy. I just love how God uses the little things to show how much He cares for us.
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