He loves me

To be completely honest I've struggled with God's love a lot. It's always seemed something afar off and beyond my reach; like I was too sinful and too black for Him to really love me. I've never been quite sure that if I had been the only one on earth if Jesus would still have died for me. I could never quite grasp the truth.
but last night something broke through. I was reading Crazy Love and all about God's love for me and I suddenly felt like I could understand it. For the first time in months (maybe years, I'm not sure) I felt His love sweep over me and fill every longing and silence every fear.
 guys, I am so seriously so happy right now.
Think about it!!! the God of the universe, the One who is, chose me (and you, I might add) before the beginning of the earth! He knew I'd have blonde hair and green eyes, He knew I'd have a stubborn personality and iron will, He knew I'd make mistakes, but He still chose me and set me apart to be one of His. goodness, I still can hardly believe it. He chose me.
It's amazing what love can do for a person. Because now I realize that the very least I can do for someone that loved me enough to die (and carry my sin) on the cross, is to give my life. completely. utterly. recklessly abandoned to Him and His cause.
 Now I do believe that He would have died for me alone. oh, the love.

    >>>Yours truly,
                   Amy Jane