lionhearted

"For You will light my lamp;The LORD my God will enlighten my darkness.
For by You I can run against a troop,
By my God I can leap over a wall." -Psalm 18:28-29

Hello everyone!

My inspiration is running rather low today, so I will just tell you a bit about what has been going on. :)

On March 6th, the couple that had looked at our house two times gave us a verbal offer... I was thrilled, heartbroken, and... maybe a little scared. Two days later we found out that the offer might fall through due to some complications, and then.. it did. I felt desperate, I think that's the right word, for the house to sell.. oh the stubbornness, and selfishness of my own nature! How God yearns for me to completely give over my will, and desires to Him!! For He has something so much better in mind for me! But anyway, during these last couple weeks, I believe it was part of a song that really reflected what I was feeling.

Don't know where to begin
Its like my world's caving in
And I try but I can't control my fear
Where do I go from here?

sometimes its so hard to pray
When You feel so far away
But I am willing to go
Where you want me to
God, I trust You

There's a raging sea
Right in front of me
Wants to pull me in
Bring me to my knees
So let the waters rise
If You want them to
I will follow You
I will follow You
I will follow You

I will swim in the deep
'Cuz You'll be next to me
You're in the eye of the storm
And the calm of the sea
You're never out of reach

God, You know where I've been
You were there with me then
You were faithful before
You'll be faithful again
I'm holding Your hand

I felt this intense desire to be close to Him, but yet... I could never quite get there! For each time I tried, something came up that would once again take me back, and away from His loving presence.

I felt I could never become the daughter, sister, and friend that He wanted me to be!

But here are some facts.. that you or I must know. =)

1. If I search after Jesus Christ with my whole heart, I will find Him!
2. Nothing is too big, or too strong for my God!!
3. My Lord is always there... He never gives up on me, and when I stray, He is right there.. calling me back.
4. The birthright that I received when I became a daughter of the Most High, is the most precious thing in this world, and giving it up for a bowl of pleasures is about the stupidest thing one could do. (how many times must I learn this lesson?)
5. There is a purpose for every season in our life... no matter how we think things should go, God knows best, and in the end we will be so thankful that we surrendered. Because amazing things will happen...

So let me encourage you, my friends.. if you are going through something where you don't understand.. or you don't know what's going on, and it scares you.... let me tell you that you are in safe Hands. You are loved.. and that love will never die.

I hope I made some sense! =)